I’ve been blessed. My entire life I have been blessed. But sometimes I feel like I'm being skipped over in some ways, mainly the relationship field. I can’t seem to meet the right woman and I can’t seem to make heads or tails of why. I even wrote a book about love and finding it unexpectedly! I have friends who are the same way. So I had a talk with God and he told me some things about me that I needed to hear. Conversation went a little like this…
“Lord, I don’t understand. What am I doing wrong to keep meeting the wrong ones? Is it me Lord?” I asked sincerely. “Every time I feel like ‘She may be her’ something happens and I'm jarred from that dream. Maybe it’s—“
“Let me stop you right there, lil dude.“ He interrupted me. His voice was calm yet firm but was filled with more love than I’ve ever known. “Royce, you know I love you. I’ve shown you in my actions and my works how much I favor you. I'm still blessing you as we speak. But I can’t do everything for you. What I mean is that I'm not going to bless you with my daughter that I see fit for you when you are still wasting your time. I know what you want, need and deserve. I already have her in mind. She’s in the same position you are right now… waiting. But until you show me in your actions that you are ready for her, I can’t grant you that blessing because you will squander it. I put this in your hands. So go be the man I know you are and I will reward you.”
Now after that talk I’ve been thinking about where to start. Changes need to happen in order to see my true blessings come to me. So with that being said it is time to get to work. In the past few years I’ve been faced with some serious trials. None stronger than which I couldn’t overcome, but each has taught me something. Something I didn’t know about myself but needed. My dreams are starting to unfold in my life. This chess game I’ve been playing is starting to tip in my favor. I’ve been blessed enough to have the right knights and bishops on my side. I’ve used my pawns strategically to take different Ls and Ws for me. But it’s hard to win the game with no queen on the board.
1 Corinthians 13:11 says “When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” This is my favorite scripture. Change is scary. But the right changes aren’t. Time to take that long look in the mirror and accept the fact that maybe, just maybe, you aren’t there yet. You say that you care? Well show me. Stop pushing and pulling. Don’t continue to stretch what can’t be stretched any farther. Are you really willing to change?
